Broken Pieces

It's amazing how someone can break your heart,

but you still love them with all the little pieces.

On the Brightside

Hurt

Pain x 100...
I trusted you so much.. and you lied to me..

What have I done wrong??

Why is everything crashing down so harshly on me =(

1st

I tried to be on the positive note today and things has been going well

until I saw the other group of people after my lect.

Even though that aura wasn't there.. but still it affects me quite abit.

Advise

It's so hard when you know how to fix the lives of others,

but you don't know how to fix yours.

Sometimes, a good adviser needs a good advise too.

Freaking Devil

Magik

I am waiting for the next next magik to arrive.
My mind keep telling me that that day I will start feeling better..
I am looking forward to that day then =)
Whatever it is.. I should stop doing magik le after that till further notice...

Anyway,

Thanks Hi² for being there to chat with me for the past few days.
It really means alot to me. =)

Yesterday

Yesterday, I've been wishing for someone to be mine.

But now, I'm gonna wish for something else -

the maturity to realize that even if someone wouldn't be mine,

I'll still be fine.

Flittering

I have been flittering through emotions the whole day..
It's only January and I am already badly injured.
Have been avoiding anything related as much as I can..
I blocked all thoughts.. I remove all traces..
but it still gets to me at times..

Looking strong

I might look strong, I might look happy.
but in reality, I'm just hiding the traces of tears
My guardian angel.. Please watch over me.
Keep me safe. Keep me sane. Keep me happy.

Rain

That nice smell of rain and the lovely sound of raindrops..

All unhappiness goes away with the rain.

Me.

Suddenly.. I felt the old me in me again.
That boldness. That courage..
That feeling that comes when you have nothing left to lose or fear about.

But it only lasted for a moment..
Where did it disappear to this time?

Roller Skate

I am amazed at myself.
I actually can roller skate now... er.. except for the fact that I still dunno how to stop.

and now I having fighting the impulse to buy a roller skate xD
Maybe I should buy just to keep my mind away from other things..
But maybe I shouldn't lest I want to get nagged at by my mum again..
(The bowling ball incident etc. xD)

That carefree feeling...
I am addicted to it and I long for it badly..
Why must school starts so early?

Crashed

Bad Results + gebroken.
But I shall not fall..
I must not fall...

My Fault

Cool. So cool..

It's my fault that my brother is late for school?
It's my fault that I didn't mess up the house?
And it's my fault to help some stranger to jump-start their engine?
Yea. Everything is my fault

Oh well.. That's so cool.

You know, I have enough of this.
I could have gone back hall to stay and not be bothered about looking after my brothers.

I am not obligated to send my already-late brother to school.

I am not as heartless as you. I cannot ignore a stranger's plea for help.

I wonder what mess has I created when the only place I am at everytime I am home is my own desk.

It's seriously super hard to be filial to you all.
I have already tried my best.. I believe everyone who knows my family can prove that.

I seriously do not know what to do anymore.

What's Wrong?

When someone asks me what's wrong... I'll just say "nothing".

Not because I don't want to tell them, but because my mind is filled with thousands and thousands of thoughts that I just don't know how to explain.

The Factor

I realise ever since then...
many of my decisions I have always place "~" into consideration.
Many of the things I done was because of "~".
I look back.. and oh my!.. I sure have looked silly

Dreaming

This day will never come.

Even if it ever arrives.. I will not participate..

Scariest Thing

I am actually a coward..

When there's a thunder storm, I would cover my ears and wait for the storm to go away.

If I go to a high place, my legs will shake.

But for me the scariest thing is when I can't see you.

米修

米修

米修就意为miss you. 米修的由来：
　　是《下一站幸福里》当梁小乐问自己父亲是谁的时候，梁暮橙告诉小乐的，他的爸爸是达拉星球的国王，会开宇宙BUBU，而呼唤他的口号就是“米修米修”。

Spontaneous

The word "Spontaneous" has been popping in my mind alot since the start of the year..
It has been reminding me of a lot of things..

And truly, I didn't realise I had changed if it wasn't for the fact that someone told me I wasn't spontaneous.. (Can't remember who said it to me.. but it was from one of Shemin's friend..)

And now the word is here to haunt me. xD

为什么?

为什么人就是那么傻？ 傻傻的付出，默默的坚持，

知道是不可能的，还是一直守候着。

-Quoted from Shermaine's Wall

那就是爱情。加油！

Joi Chua - 有一天我会

有些事我没说　但我有感觉
有些事我没说　但我知道结果
有些事我没说　但你有感觉
有些事我没说　但你知道结果

有一天我会　插上翅膀飞
有一天我会　张开双眼看
有一天我会　见到我的梦中有谁
有一天我会　飞过世界的背

当太阳升起的那一天　
你再看我一遍
你将会发现我　所有的改变

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You

I don’t know but

I think I maybe

Fallin’ for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

Keep this to myself

Waiting ’til I Know you better

Happiness

Do it not because you expect something in return...

Do it because you truly want the person to be happy.

Xiao Hei

Enlightenment can come to one at the most unexpected time.
That's pretty true I guess.

Just had a 2hrs long talk with Xiao Hei.
Counselling each other for 2 long hours... haha
And she was right. I was on a wrong path, and she corrected me.
Though it's hard to achieve that mindset she suggested,
I guess it's worth a try =)

Thanks Xiao Hei for the advice.
I do hope it does make me a happier person.

Going Back

If you could go back and just change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing? Just one moment. One moment that you've always wanted back.

Planned

I always think about all the things I want to say to you. Like, I actually plan it out... In my head... But then when I see you, nothing comes out. I never tell you, and I wonder if you'll ever know half the things I think.

Olivia Ong - Sometimes When We Touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

Trying

I was really unhappy the day before. But I realise everything was my wishful thinking. I guess I only have myself to blame for my unhappiness and it's me myself who caused my own emo-ness. Well I have decided to try to be more optimistic. It ain't gonna be easy but at least I try.

Anyway, went Teo Heng today with Tidus peeps. It was as always fun and entertaining. I was still recovering from a recent cold thus I couldn't reach my usual notes. But still, I enjoyed myself =D

Changes

Take a moment and think back..
Do you think you have changed?
Was the old you, the current you?

It's only recently that I realised I changed.
Looking back... Where did the usually cheerful, full of crazy ideas, spontaneous Leonard that still existed 3 years back?

Did I lose all that fun and crappiness when I entered NS?
Or has age caught up with me?
I myself have no answer to it. But I plan to find out... I plan to find back the old me. =)

Thanks

To all my friends =)

First Entry

Eh.. If you have visited this blog before 2011..
You will realise the old entries are missing.
Well, they ain't lost. I just placed them somewhere else.

Welcome to the brand new Cookie For Thought.